So some people know me well enough to know I try to live my life like spades.
Meaning I place people in my life by Suites.
Diamonds= Career builders/financial support
Clubs= The ones you just have fun with nothing more
Spades= All the above and more (They cut for you)
And I play "Joker Joker Deuce Deuce"
In your own hand you should be your High Joker.
Well, Today I feel like Cutting... I wanna throw in the hand and just go Ghost and Silent stop loving stop trusting stop giving a DAMN... Just be on reclusive, make people miss my presence ( and realize who I actually mattered to)
It's hard trying to care so much... and I don't wanna be that person who gives up and has the people who look at me as hope to be motivation that " if he can do it I can!" then Give up! :(
And its not because of any of my previous emotional post. (thats a seperate journey)
I wanna hold on to all that.. Until :)
Just in general I wanna disappear!
I wanna pull out the HIGH JOKER and cut all the bull crap out!
But guess what, I'm not....
I'm just gonna take it a day at a time!
Its not easy! But only the strong survive and I refuse to be the one who gave up my LIGHT!
I'm Always a spade that CUTS high!
May you Reign
Keep hope alive.... and one foot in front of the other!
DON'T GIVE UP!